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Sunday, 28 March 2010

  • i haven't written on here in forever. so  much has changed.
    we bought a house, got a new dog. i went for a pointless surgery, i am now a supervisor at a pizza place.
    i'm still confused. i'm married, dunno if i've written since then....i want to get back in school, i want to learn how to drive, i'm contemplating joining the military. oh, and today i've discovered that my promise ring is missing. joy.
    i'll write something more substantial later.

Saturday, 27 June 2009

  • emmett is currently playing with my earrings, after dive bombing me when i sat on the couch. he's a sneaky little bastard....he watches from his cage and takes off once he knows that you are comfortable and not going to move.
    i just rearranged the spare bedroom and i am going to start cleaning the rest of the apartment once i'm done straightening in there. if paul thinks he is switching it back, or making a mess of it with his gear when he gets home, he's nuts.
    i'm really tired and depressed. my menstrual cramps are kicking my ass. i'm so lonely right now.


Thursday, 25 June 2009

  • oh and one of my birds fucking died. can you believe that shit?
    RIP Rosalie

  • Currently
    In Keeping Secrets of Silent Earth: 3
    By Coheed and Cambria, Coheed & Cambria
    see related
    so, that ovarian "cyst" that the naval hospital diagnosed me with was really a bladder infection that is now three months old, minimum. haha, at least its not cancer! i should really give those people a piece of my mind. but i won't. i'm more frusterated that i was put in such a panic than i am that they made a mistake.
    anyways, life is life. i'm bored. i had more to say but now i can't remember what it was gonna be.

    haha "that's a lot of smot...i mean po" hahaha

Tuesday, 16 June 2009

  • so it has basically been forever. sorry, not like anyone reads this anyways...
    i went home this weekend which was fun, but stressful, entirely too much traveling just to go to new york. at least next time i'll go with the hubby and for a longer period of time.
    i'm really exhausted and emotionally drained. i feel like everything is coming at me at once. i can't trust those that i thought i could, and those that can trust me, and once did, don't anymore. i feel washed up and used. i can't really explain it. i want to get back into my writing, i've neglected it for entirely too long...maybe once i get back into the swing of that, i will feel a little less overwhelmed. it'd be nice.
    things in nc are great for the most part. i miss kier, she moved a few weeks back, and it sucks because she was a daily part of my day. her mat and the baby became family, and now, like the rest of my family, they are so very far away. everyone else is prego, which is great, i'm excited for them, but due to morning sickness and such, i don't see them as often as i would like. i guess such is the way of military land tho...especially with no license (which i'm working on, i have a car now..woohoo!)

    hmm...whatelse...medical, i'm probably insane...i sliced my hand open with a steak knife and had to get stitches, which i removed myself with paul's leatherman. i did good. also, there is a questionable cyst on my ovary, i go to the doc on wednesday to figure out what it is, or what to do to find out what it is...hopefully its nothing.
    other than sitting here fighting sleep, and pretending to be miserable because its passing the time, i'm doing alright. i just need to stop wishing for things that will never happen....
    goodnight